ピアノを始めたとき…
Q.ピアノをはじめたとき、
（クイズ形式）
A.病院を退院したときです。
私、３歳の頃、心臓病になりました。
当時、私の病気を治せるところは日本に３つ程度。
研究されている病院、医師。
近隣都市になかったため、県をまたいで入院し手術しました。
気が強い女の子でした。ぼんやりとですが、覚えています。
初めてできた友だち。 楽しい思い出。
二十歳を越えたくらいに病気についてなにげなく母にききました。
当時、病室には４名くらいの同じような心疾患の病児がおり
みんな手術をうけるため入院していたようです。
ただ、、、
私のように、退院後も運動して（経過観察は二十歳まで毎年行ってましたが）
普通の日常を送れることは稀だったらしく、
一緒に遊んでいた女の子は、亡くなっておられました。
ショックだった。とにかく明るかった。元気があって、けんかもしてました。
多分、２０歳頃聞かされたのだけど、
それでも
自身が再発するのかとか、
ちょっとした不整脈で病気を疑うようになりました。
母は私が、退院後も同じ病児の母親と手紙のやりとりをしていたようです。
その女の子の病名は 心室中隔欠損症〘ＶＳＤ〙
同じ心臓病には変わりなかったのですが、私は心房中隔欠損症（ＡＳＤ）
病気で苦しんだ、同じ仲間が大人になる前に、何回も（本人にとっては）※受けたくない手術をうけ、つらい思いだったともいます。今生きていることは当たり前ではなかったことと、その病棟の子達の分まで生きないと、と誓いました。
※生きるためには必要なことなので否定しているわけではないです。
というわけで、今更ながら自分は病弱でそのためにピアノを習わせて頂いたんだっておとなになってから気が付きました。ありがとう。
だけどね、幼少よりモーツァルト、バッハ、ベートーヴェンいっぱい聞いたけど、
天才にはほど遠くてごめんなさい。
４０歳になって、かけがえのない子どもを３人も授かったこと。
産んでくれ、協力して育ててくれている妻。感謝しています。
毎日の日課です。基礎練習。基礎練習。
Q. When I started playing the piano
(Quiz format)
A. It was when I was discharged from the hospital.
I had heart disease when I was 3 years old.
At that time, there were about three places in Japan that could cure my illness.
Authoritative doctors, hospitals where research is done,
Since I wasn't in my prefecture, I was hospitalized and operated on across prefectures.
So, my first memory was in a hospital room or ward, and I played with a nurse and a girl with a similar illness at a nurse station with medical equipment to measure vital capacity.
It was a strong girl. It's vague, but I remember.
The first friend I made. happy memories.
I came to my mother casually about my illness when I was over 20 years old.
At that time, there were about four children with similar heart disease in the hospital room.
It seems that everyone was hospitalized for surgery.
However,,,
Like me, I exercised even after I was discharged (although I followed up every year until I was 20 years old).
It seems that it is rare to be able to live a normal daily life,
The girl I was playing with was dead.
It was a shock. It was bright anyway. I was fine and I was sick.
Maybe I was told when I was 20 years old, but I still
I started to suspect that I was ill because of a slight arrhythmia, such as whether I would relapse.
Her mother seems to have been exchanging letters with the mother of the same sick child even after I was discharged.
The girl's disease name is Ventricular Septal Defect 〘VSD〙
I didn't change to the same heart disease, but I have an atrial septal defect (ASD)
Before the same companion who suffered from illness became an adult, he had many times (for himself) * surgery that he did not want to undergo, and it was a painful feeling. I swore that it wasn't natural to be alive now and that I wouldn't live up to the children in the ward.
* I'm not denying it because it is necessary to live.
So, even now, I realized that I was sick and learned the piano for that reason when I became an adult. Thank you.
However, I heard a lot of Mozart, Bach, Beethoven from a young age,
I couldn't be a genius. sorry.
However, at the age of 40, I had three irreplaceable children.
A wife who gives birth and cooperates in raising her. Thank you very much.
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